I attended Royston's 21st birthday last saturday after my work. Did not want to attend in the first place cuz Ivy was sick and i had no accompany. Shin ni was there since afternoon but by the time i reach there she had to go back to Malaysia. Luckily there is 2 other guys accompanying me that night or i might have leave early. There was only 4 from NP which includes me, SN and that 2 guys while the rest are his secondary school and army friends.  One of the guy is from Biomedical science and he was the one who entertain me most of the time after shin ni left and he even help me to get drinks. Isnt he gentleman? Thanks to the 2 of them if not i would have feel really bored.

I have been feeling very lost lately. I didnt talk to my parents like i use to anymore. I use to talk to them about my work, studies and friends. How i wish i could tell them how lost i am right now. Everyday i am smiling but deep down inside i am very lost. I become very quiet each time i reach home which is not me at all.

One of friends said that it is because i am feeling lonely right now and that i should find myself a boyfriend so that i would not feel lost anymore. i doubt so. She even told me about this particular guy whom i know as well and said that he is really a nice guy and that we should start out as friends and see how it goes. 

I have never been in a relationship before so i don't know how is it like. Honestly, I fear of relationship and will start building a wall around me when i heard of this word or when someone gets near. I am still waiting for the right one to knock down this wall of mine. Relationship is not something to joke about as feelings are being involve. If one day you ever see me attach, it could be that wall is gone and that my heart has melted.

 Saw this in facebook note and i think its quite meaningful.



每个女生心里都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友
你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了自己的前程，她没有要你等她。

也许你们相遇太早，
还不懂得珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，
你们身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，
对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，
而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

她有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望她追到。

她遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮她，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和她只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心她，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做她的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
她永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，
当她那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？


很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了

常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的......

关于爱情：
不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有就是最好的。
不要认为我还年轻，可以晚些结婚，爱情是不等年龄的。
不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。
不要因为对方不富裕而放弃，只要不是无能的人，勤劳可以让你们致富。
不要因为父母反对而放弃，你会发现这个原因而放弃的爱情，将是你一生的悔恨。
其实，对于爱情，越单纯越幸福！一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的。经历的太多了，会麻木，分离多了，会习惯，换恋人多了，会比较，到最后你会不再相信爱情，你会自暴自弃，你会毫无生气，你会行尸走肉，你会与一个你不爱的人结婚，就这样过一辈子···

所以牵好的手就不要轻易放开，说过的话就不要轻易收回，承诺过的人就不要轻易忘记···

有些人，有些事，既然发生了。
就注定是你一生的回忆···

I took one of my annual leave today so i have 3 days off from sat up to Monday. I don't usually give myself excuses to take leave but i did as its my best friend 21st birthday. =)

Happy birthday to Hui Yi whose birthday falls on 21st March. We celebrated it early as we do not want to affect her actual celebration with her love ones. It is always nice to have you around as you always manage to make me smile. Somehow i love to hear her updating about her life and her animals. She always have weird and funny names for her animals and this time she name her new pets tao suan and dusty. why? Cuz the first one look like the colour of tao suan while the latter look dirty and greyish.

I do hope that she had a wonderful birthday celebration with us plus the strawberry strudel and her Guess wallet present. Huiz, may all your wishes come true and may you be happy together with your love forever and always. =)

Before the celebration i met S early to shop around Bugis and to have breakfast. When facing her i always manage to pour out my heart unknowingly. Once i told her that besides my first crush, i did had feelings for someone whom she knew as well. I have been keeping it well because i have so many fears. It started when we were year 1 and we were waiting for lecture to start. He sat beside me showing concern about my piano practice etc. At that time i had trouble practicing my score and he was the one who told me i can do it. I know that sounds dumb and that it is only a concern as a friend...but he is the second person whom i notice during lectures.

My New Samsung Jet

Went to IT fair on Thursday with my colleague after work ended. It was really damn crowded even though its only the first day of the fair. Look around for laptops and printers, Then our last stop is at Singtel when we started queuing to ask for corporate lines. Ate at Toastbox after viewing around.

Went back on Friday again cuz my colleague and I decided to sign for a new phone and a new line. I took Samsung Jet. Then we ate at Xin Wang Cafe. I am beginning to love my Samsung Jet due to its style and interior design. You can choose to put 3 different wallpapers as you can switch between 3 different walls and its much more interesting then my previous LG phone. And the best thing is that its a $0 phone. Besides that my line plan is only $20 per month with the same amount of smses and outgoing calls which also means i will save at least $10 per month with the same amount of usage. =)

I really like this colleague of mine and am glad that even though we only know each other for barely 4 months, we are able to hang out together after work, talk about personal stuffs and also to gossip about our work when things just go wrong. Or should i say we can click the right from the start? haha. Just Barely 4 months and we have been going out quite frequently after work. And what is the best thing? We are from the same secondary school. =)

Went to celebrate my mum's birthday after work and then went to meet Za at woodlands around 9pm to watch Alice In Wonderland.Movie started at 9.15 and ended at 11pm. I think overall its quite a nice movie even though SN said that Avatar is much nicer and interesting to watch. She keep making me regret that i didnt go and watch Avatar... =(

Met up with Sn on Sat and she was the one that initiated the meet up! I was so surprise when she say she wanted to meet up on sat cuz i thought she will be busy with her JL and also i am always the one asking to meet up. We shop around JP and keep getting lost. We are like 2 goldfish 'swimming' back to the same place even though we have already shop that area and we also keep eating non-stop. We stop at one of the nonya restaurant for our lunch as we like the ambience. =)

After our lunch we saw this tube dress which we wanted to buy badly. But it cost almost $30 and the material is only so so. Therefore we keep telling ourself that it is not worth it. Then Sn saw this wallet which she like and it cost around $80 (If i didnt remember wrongly) but didnt buy it. After all the shopping we decided to have our dinner by sharing a plate of fried Kway Teow and Ice-Kachang. Then we went home..

The journey back home was the funniest one cuz we kept laughing non-stop. This sotong still thought she live in Woodlands even though she has moved house! And she jumped up wanting to alight when i say 'wow, so fast reach woodlands already!' So Funny! Make me laugh uncontrollably! >.<

Chinese New Year is the occasion i look forward to every year. Reason? No only there is abalone and Lo-Hei but there is also all the yummy tibits, candies and chocolates! Not to say that you cant eat all those on normal days but the feeling is just so different when u share it with families and friends during this very special occasion.

This year New year Eve my mum was not around to prepare the food as she went back to Malaysia to celebrate with her parents, sisters and brothers at Ipoh. So because of this i had to went home to prepare all the food for 3 families straight after my half day work end. Thankfully one of the attachment student came back to help at work or i think i might feel too tired to go home to cut and marinate those meat or worse still, i might not be able to set up everything on time when they arrive at my house. Thankfully everything went on well. =)

The first day of new year is always the same. We will wake up early, bath and wear our new clothes and say new year greetings to our parents (this year without my mum). Then we will wait for our relatives to visit us. During the first day of new year i will stay at my house as it is always the 'main' house for gathering since our granny stay with us therefore relatives will come to our house as their first stop. And then Hong Baos and hong baos kept rolling in~~~~ So how many have you got yours?

Second days there wasnt anywhere we could go since my dad had gathering with his friends. My brothers and I went to suki Sushi to eat so as to kill time. Gathering with his friends is a standard procedure once every year. I was guessing that maybe this is the time when guys with guys could have a heart to heart talk or maybe some could even wind about their wives and children? Do guys wind about all these stuffs ?

Start Work on the third day of CNY.. how boring can that be. Anyway to summarise we gathered together quite a few times this year; on the Eve, First day, 7th day and last day of new year. Below are all the photos taken except for the 7th day as i was too busy eating. =p

I didnt prepare all these food (Above). I only prepare the Lo-Hei (Below)

Ebi Fry Sushi. Yum Yum*

Brothers. One busy munching his food, one busy looking at pretty girls walking by.

Chawamushi has always been my love.

My brother love handrolls.

Cousin and me.

Cousins and aunt.

At my house.

These 2 days i have been shopping with my colleague at Tampines Ikea, Giant and Courts. We just dont feel like going home so early after our work and so we chit chat and walk around. I think we spend most of our time chatting away.

I wanted to buy a carpet and a resting chair so i could 'create' a resting corner in my room and then also a chair for my study table. I wanted to change the look of my room after my sister get married which is 2 months from now. But my colleague told me that having a carpet is not a wise choice as it will be quite dusty. Im seeing how it goes now..