Dearest Granny

Granny passed away peacefully on 29th April at 3.14am.. I will never forget the look on her face. Thanks for colleagues and friends who are there at the funeral. I know that god has bring her to a better place from all the pain she might face. Comfort at the fact that at least it was not the cancer that cause her pain and suffering when she passed the last stage of her life.

The day before after my work, I received a call from mum. She said my granny was having breathing difficulties and I was told to go home immediately to cook for my brothers as the maid had to accompany my granny in the ambulance. After dinner, I was told that granny could not make it that night... All that sudden my mind was in a blank.. Brought my brothers along took a cab and met my sis to go together.

Even before I reach the hospital, my eyes was swollen from all the crying. I was afraid that I couldn't see her for the last time. The counter people ask for my info and my granny's name and ward but at that time I really wasn't able to answer clearly.. My brother-in-law have to step in to help.

Uncle was the last to reach as he had to work. At that time even though no voice came out, we know that she was calling for my uncle to be there.

We were there till 10 plus until we had no choice to leave.. I stayed there the whole night to accompany my granny and hold her left hand as she kept trying to take out the oxygen mask. My cousin came to accompany us after she had dinner with her friends. After staying up for one whole night asking the nurse for my granny's BP and heart rate, the nurse tell me a news that make me feel better. She said my granny's condition was better that before.

I fall asleep somehow as I was really too tired.. When I woke up she seems asleep.. And she was like this the whole day. I was there until near 8.30 pm. The doctor told my cousin and I to go home as staying there in the hospital is not going to be a short term.. And so I thought of going to work on thursday and decided to come straight from work to accompany her again and stay there since Im having off on fri and sat. But it was too late... My granny passed away early morning..

Until now I regretted not staying on the second night.. I thought she pulled through the critical stage which is what the doctor said.. I wanted very much to hold her hands when she leave so that she won't be lonely..

I still hope that it was a dream and when I wake up granny is still there.. I cried very hard the first few days because it was too sudden to accept..

Goodbye Granny. I love you always.  ♥♥